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I love you, I hate you
I love you, I hate you
I love you
So much, I would give
my life for this
If the bullet was the beat
I would probably die for this
How many times did I cry for this?
I would hate myself if I
didn't at least try for this
What's at stake is bigger than me
Blood, tears, how it stains
can't rid it with ease
What we have in common is our pain
We're given the keys
To unlock what it takes to fight
for what we believe in
Hard to confront the truth of
what you see in the mirror
Some people you inspire and
others you trigger
Fightin' in blind faith,
led by the internal voice
You might not wanna do it
but you don't have a choice
Will the pressure take me to
new heights or be my demise?
Will my intentions coincide
with what I advise?
The people lookin' up to me,
doin' everything right
But who am I to tell anyone
how to live their life?
Your pain threshold will determine
if you survive, I'm amazed by it
Lyin' to myself,
pretending I was never phased by it
Maybe 'cause you're in my DNA
that's why
I love you, I hate you
I love you
Sometimes, I hate you
Always, I love you
But right now, I hate you
I love you, I hate you
You made a promise to God to be
there for your kids
You made a promise to give them
a life that you didn't live
My ego won't fully allow me
to say that I miss you
A woman who hasn't confronted
all her daddy issues
The day will come when you gotta find
all the answers to your sins
Pressures of providin',
feeling unhappy within
Or what kind of external
family shit up on your plate
But I understand wantin'
and needin' an escape
Too much unsaid now the silence
givin' me headaches
Only through speech can we let go
of all this dead weight
Even though I'm angry,
don't wanna be disrespectful
Tryna figure out how to approach
this in the best way
Hard to not carry these feelings
even on my best days
Never thought my parent would
give me my first heartbreak
Anxiety givin' me irregular heart rate
Used to avoidin' and then hide
how I really feel about this
Now I see how fickle life
can be and so it can't wait
Should've been the person there
to hold me on my dark days
It's easier to stargaze
And wish than be faced
with this reality
Is you a sperm donor or
a dad to me? And still
I love you, I hate you
I love you, I hate you (hate that I)
Always, I love you
But right now, I hate you
Always, I love you
I hate you (hate that I)
On this mission, you live and learn
The world will show you
no mercy from birth
How do you humanize your hero?
'Round here you're
only respected if earned
Half-hearted sorry's can't
let your guard down
To get to Nirvana where
do you start out?
Angry 'cause they don't meet
your unrealistic standards
Then you realize that they're human
and you calm down
Sometimes I'm unbalanced and I think,
"Rah, why am I losing my steps?"
Lately, I'm paranoid,
I feel my life is a mess
I'm just usin' my voice,
hope it will have an effect
He was just once a boy,
often I seem to forget
Lookin' at Polaroids and
pictures secretly kept
You know what was destroyed
but you don't know what was left
Tryna phase out the noise,
of who you hear in your head
Everything is a choice and
anything can be said
Is you missin' the point,
are you just hearin' me vent?
Or is you ain't understandin',
know when my words will connect?
I keep you in my prayers
'cause life is short as we know
Every mistake you make should
contribute to your growth
What you choose to avoid will
probably come in your dreams
I'm not forgivin' for you, man,
I'm forgivin' for me
And sometimes
I hate you
Sometimes I love you
Sometimes I hate you
Always, I love you, I hate you
I love you, I hate you