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I still remember
writing my daddy letters
It was hard times
And it hurt me bad
when I saw him turn into ashes
I still cry
I pray to God my mama
stay alive until I blow up
So she can see me on that stage
see her baby boy get famous
Tired of losing loved ones I
don't wanna feel that pain no more
I tried to put these pills down
but I can't the devil in control
I'm a lost soul
with nowhere to go to
I pray I make it home
tryna get rich off of protools
My uncle bought our first TV
I just hope that he don't leave me
Daddy was locked up came home
after school mom's drunk
Was tired of struggling
so I had to find me a better route
While y'all was doing homework
I was screaming free my pops
Cried alot hoping I don't wake
up the next morning
Pretending I was sleep
when I heard my mama
pouring up alcohol
Yeah I had it hard
I don't wanna go back Sydney
left I'm lonely
They ain't believe in my vision
so they turned they back
Fuck all of em
Only call me they brother
when I got this cash
No you ain't my brother
Drown in my pain it's way too deep
Putting my faith in GOD
Hoping I don't get caught serving
Seeing police cars make me nervous
I still remember
writing my daddy letters
It was hard times
And it hurt me bad
when I saw him turn into ashes
I still cry
I pray to God my mama
stay alive until I blow up
So she can see me on that stage
see her baby boy get famous
Tired of losing loved ones
I don't wanna feel that pain no
more
I tried to put these pills down
but I can't the devil in control
I'm a lost soul
with nowhere to go to
I pray I make it home
tryna get rich off of protools
Tryna figure out where my
so called friends went
Soon the hype died nobody round
me they all disappeared
And it's hard for me to feel
without taking
all these pills and I
Know that shit ain't right
but I still be getting high dawg
Sydney got my heart locked daddy
paid no child support
I wanted some silence my parents
fighting over money
Shoutout all my junkies
cuz I'd be broke without y'all
Ay I was at that hospital
getting rid off fentanyl remember
I gave my love out
it ain't no more love left in me
I can't seem to love myself
I'm my biggest enemy
A pessimist what I was had
to change my mindset
Depression knocked me down fuck
it I'll just have to try again
I still remember
writing my daddy letters
It was hard times
And it hurt me bad
when I saw him turn
into ashesI still cry
I pray to God my mama
stay alive until I blow up
So she can see me on that stage
see her baby boy get famous
Tired of losing loved ones
I don't wanna feel that pain no
more
I tried to put these pills down
but I can't the devil in control
I'm a lost soul
with nowhere to go to
I pray I make it home
tryna get rich off of protools